This is the perfect reminder for me, at a perfect time. I love how God does that.
Have you ever been misread? Misheard? Misunderstood? What is it about being wrongly accused that makes me wince from the pain, doubled over like I’ve been slugged in the gut?
…and not just any pride, but the spiritual kind…the kind that envisions myself in a very different light than what others are perceiving in me…and it hurts…my pride…to think that I am not all that, like I thought I might have been…like I was trying to be.
And the funny thing is, I’m usually more thick-skinned than that. Criticism usually just rolls off, but this time, it hurt me…to think that I was not showing Jesus to others.
I was in Mass on Sunday, and I was pouring out my heart to God. How I desire for Jesus to live in and through me. It is my deepest longing to show Jesus to others by my choices, my attitude, my heart-cries.
Lord, I want you to be in me, and shine through me, so that others will see you…and it humbles me to hear that is not the case.
Wanna know what He said to me? I heard him, plain as day:
Find yourself in Me, Lyn.
Focus on remaining in Me, and let me worry about who I reveal myself to.
I was so worried about showing Jesus to others, I had missed the point that I cannot bear any fruit, unless I am found in Him.
It’s not about what others see, it’s all about being FOUND in Him…by Him…for His glory, not my own.
I can’t tell you how freeing this thought has been for me.
Lord, let me be found in You. Reveal your will to me, and welcome me into the life beat of Your heart. Empty me of my spiritual pride, and fill me with Your Holy Presence. Give me Your thoughts, guide me in Your paths, teach me Your ways.