Did you ever need a reset?
I do. I’m in a slump as of late, and need to reset, regroup, and refocus.
I have come to a place in my life, where I’m seeing things more clearly, experiencing God’s presence and hearing Him speak to my heart in ways I have only dreamed of; and at the same time, I feel an anxiety in my spirit…a simmering frustration that occasionally bubbles up and spills out of my mouth in biting words I don’t really mean to say, and hot tears that defy my own ideas of stoic self-discipline.
I know that a large part of my problem is my own “all or nothing” attitude. I find something that I love to do, and all sense of balance goes out the window…I throw myself 100% into the new thing that I love, and forget to maintain the essential disciplines that keep my little world turning here. Facebook, which was intended to be a TOOL to keep me in contact with my children, has turned into a vice for me. I lose all track of time, and find it difficult to walk away…as a result, my relationships and responsibilities have suffered. I think this is at least partiality the culprit in my bubbling anger…I’m irritated at myself, and feeling lazy and unmotivated to change, so I surf around on Facebook…escaping what I know I need to do, for the sake of one more article, one more comment, one more share…until I’ve wasted another afternoon instead of doing what I know I need to do.
Anyway, until I can find some semblance of self control again, I’m disabling my Facebook, and re-vamping my schedule to reflect a more balanced list of priorities. I hope to be reading more and journaling again, which hopefully will lead to some new blog posts here. My posts here will no longer show on Facebook, as my personal page there will be no more. Please bookmark NewThings if you wish to follow. I don’t know how long I’ll be MIA on FB, but would appreciate your prayers in the meantime.