Letting Go of the Old

Did you ever need a reset?

I do.  I’m in a slump as of late, and need to reset, regroup, and refocus.

I have come to a place in my life, where I’m seeing things more clearly, experiencing God’s presence and hearing Him speak to my heart in ways I have only dreamed of; and at the same time, I feel an anxiety in my spirit…a simmering frustration that occasionally bubbles up and spills out of my mouth in biting words I don’t really mean to say, and hot tears that defy my own ideas of stoic self-discipline.

I know that a large part of my problem is  my own “all or nothing” attitude.  I find something that I love to do, and all sense of balance goes out the window…I throw myself 100% into the new thing that I love, and forget to maintain the essential disciplines that keep my little world turning here.  Facebook, which was intended to be a TOOL to keep me in contact with my children, has turned into a vice for me.  I lose all track of time, and find it difficult to walk away…as a result, my relationships and responsibilities have suffered.  I think this is at least partiality the culprit in my bubbling anger…I’m irritated at myself, and feeling lazy and unmotivated to change, so I surf around on Facebook…escaping what I know I need to do, for the sake of one more article, one more comment, one more share…until I’ve wasted another afternoon instead of doing what I know I need to do.

Anyway, until I can find some semblance of self control again, I’m disabling my Facebook, and re-vamping my schedule to reflect a more balanced list of priorities.  I hope to be reading more and journaling again, which hopefully will lead to some new blog posts here.  My posts here will no longer show on Facebook, as my personal page there will be no more.  Please bookmark NewThings if you wish to follow.  I don’t know how long I’ll be MIA on FB, but would appreciate your prayers in the meantime.

Blessings.

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Sunday linkage and weekly Recap

I stumbled onto two really excellent posts this morning, that I so totally relate to as a new convert to the Catholic Church.  I don’t know how many times I’ve been reading through my familiar verses and something new will seem to have magically appeared there that I didn’t see before.  I love how the Word of God is alive and active!  You can read these articles here and here.

This past week has been a strange one.  As a result of catching some sort of stomach bug, I sleepwalked through the first half of the week, and spent the other half reading and writing in preparation for my grand idea of a virtual ladies retreat here at New Things.  As a result, I found myself at the end of the week a bit discombobulated and spacey.  I put my youngest (last daughter at home) on a plane yesterday, headed for Dallas to spend four weeks with her older sister, and am contemplating the coming month without her vivacious presence.  I plan to seize the day (weeks)  and finish up my studies on prayer that I will share in August.

After I announced the virtual retreat plan, about midway through one of my posts about prayer, I got this overwhelming feeling of panic and dread.  I certainly feel like I’ve bitten off more than I can chew, and wonder if giving myself four weeks was enough.  I am praying fervently as I share what I am learning about prayer, that God will teach me, and guide me, and that it would be His work, not mine.  I am also praying for the readers of these posts, that they would be personally ministered to as the Holy Spirit meets the individual needs of the reader, right where she is…and mostly, that God would be glorified through it all.

Blessings,

Lyn

New Things This Week

I’ve recently happened on a few different blogs that had a recap of their blog week.  I like that idea a lot, and have decided to do my own.  If it catches on, I’ll try to make it a (another) regular “new thing” here.

Welcome!

I’m seeing some new “faces” here, and want to extend a warm welcome.  I hope that my thoughts and brainstorms can be an encouragement to you, and that we would enjoy sweet fellowship together.  Please don’t hesitate to jump in and contribute to the conversation, and please, bounce some of your ideas off my wall while you’re here.

I’d also like to point out the link  to my facebook page on the sidebar.  If you like what you see here, please like me on facebook to receive updates and related content.

What I’m writing:

I have some random thoughts still rattling around in my brain on the subject of suffering.  Nothing that’s come anywhere close to being able to communicate yet…I’ve been a bit preoccupied this week with my Baltimore Catechism series.  I have three entries set to publish and am currently working on my fourth and fifth.  This is a record for me, as I am usually blogging by the seat of my pants, just trying to have something…anything that will pass for content.  I’m enjoying the instruction in my faith, as I dig around the Word of God and the Catechism to answer questions for friends and family members regarding our decision to become Catholic.    As I mentioned before, I’ll be posting this series on Thursdays, and I would LOVE to have feedback both from the perspectives of Catholics, new and established…as well as dialogue with my Protestant brothers and sisters.   If you haven’t yet done so, please read  A Letter to My Christian Friends, the introduction to this series, and the first installment.

I’ve also finally working on a little story for my grandchildren.  When we first moved here, we had a terrible problem with mice, and not just any mice…these ones could lick a mousetrap clean and never set it off, it was mindboggling.  I told my husband I was going to write a story about a little family of mice who are grateful for the food provided to them by the sweet people that just moved in…well I’ve got a rough draft, and am thinking about how I’m going to illustrate it.  I want to publish it for my grandchildren, if nothing else.

Recommended reading:

A Holy Experience’s “Letter to the Wounded” was such a soothing balm to my soul.  If you’re weary and feel like you’re barely hanging on, it will comfort you.  Go read it, and be blessed too.

Called to Communion has a great article on one of the legitimate differences between Catholic and Protestant teaching, Sola Scriptura…it’s a little heavier than I usually attempt, but very informative and well written.

Catholic Cravings’ “When the Earth Was Flat” sets the record straight on age-old misconceptions and misinformation.

In my “spare” time

I’ve started walking.  It feels good and allows me to disconnect a little bit and reconnect to God in prayer.  One of these days I will get a play list set up on my MP3, and enjoy some tunes while I walk.

This week on Netflix:  The Boy in the Striped Pajamas, Skeleton Key, We Were Soldiers and my husband’s favorite, Star Trek the next Generation.

On my prayer list:

If you would pray for me, I have a couple requests.  One:  My arm is killing me.  I’ve had decreased range of motion, pain and swelling in my shoulder and upper arm for going on two months now.  I keep thinking it’s getting better, then I do something to re-injure it again.  Two:  I have two grandbabies due in May.  I would very much appreciate prayer that my girls would carry to full term and experience a speedy and safe labor and delivery.  A former neighbor girl and friend of my girls had a baby this week.  It seems like yesterday they were just kids riding bikes through the neighborhood and playing “PigPen”, and now they are becoming Mommies of their own children.  I am thanking God for a safe delivery and a healthy baby, and continuing to pray for this family, that they would know God’s love for them and walk in His ways.

That’s pretty much it for this week.  Have a great weekend, God bless!

~Lyn